Helpful expectations

My hobbies consist of taking pills, bed and unrelenting failure
I can't recommend it enough to you.
Honest, I'd change it and myself if I thought it would help
but this is my best for the minute, and I want people to accept that.

'Learn self love', is what they tell me, 'go easier on yourself', but
my insides writhe every waking minute and I desperately want
oblivion to overwhelm me, I'm just not the sort to do that sort of thing.
'Try to cheer up, do your best, you can't change things', sound familiar?

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I'm the sort of person that gets left at the altar
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I'm a washed out fake smile under fluorescent lights
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I'll listen to your problems and give you advice,
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but I don't tell you about mine
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because its already all I talk about